Whoa man....tell us how you feel. I feel for you bro such things can get disgusting. Is there another field you could fly at? This is about fun not getting you all up in the air. They probably can tell it gets you worked up which is why they egg you. But its understable that it upsets you as well.....especially right after losing a good bird. Best thing to do is start putting pieces back together tonight so you dont get burn out looking at the mess, usually the planes not as bad as it looks. Then start looking for another place to fly tomorrow....should help your mood an your flying.