Mike , "the children" Yes
Ricky, "in a Flash" yes
Paul "Tough spots" yes
My personal experience, The lowest point of my life, I wasn't sure of God and would say I need poof to change me ,, Almost agnostic.
But laying in a bed , in a sad state, with no reason to live another second, A lousy husband -Father and person, Low life drunk with no good reason to keep breathing.
I silently in my mind said to the Lord, "I give up" "Its in your hands"
"Please help me and I will serve you in any way you see fit" I know lord I need to stop the sins and I am ready now" "Please help me"
This was a total surrender. It started because I knew I was not being the best father for my daughter who was about to be 2 yr old (now 19 and hates me) , I need to surrender again but I'm fighting
This was the toughest spot I had ever been in,
And in a Flash, I was flooded with a feeling of well-being and Though hard to describe the Dark room was lit up with the presence of the Lord , His light shined through me and cleansed my soul.
This is hard to type, but I have recently spoken with piggy about it, so why not share with the Bros :shrug2:
I never became a Bible thumper because it was not my mission.
I find my self in a world of shit again as I type, I know the answer and how to have a wonderful experience again. But I guess I haven't hit a low enough state and it's scary. My new mission may not include my current family,or the Hood, It may totally take away every thing I know.
But rest assured I know the Lord is waiting for me to surrender so he can give me a new assignment..
Now it's up to Me.
sharing this is not easy, but I think good.
Lord please watch over my children , Care for Tamster and help Andy, Watch over Jim's health, and Keep Mark safe out there and please help me make the right decisions.
Amen